At this point I want all of my readers to pick their jaws up off of he floor... yes he was in a relationship. Now most of you maybe shocked thinking "not my Buttaflibabee, surely she didn't mess with a married man?" yes I did. This happens every single day we walk this earth, women & men selling themselves short just to say they are in a relationship or maybe loving the person more than they love themselves... I'm not quite sure. In my situation I could (and do) have an explanation for it all... I could easily explain how & why I involved myself in such ridiculousness, but would that really matter? The fact is it happened. I'm not proud of what I've done because hell I'm a champion for women! I will say this, I am proud of the level of openness I was able to explore within my soul. One thing i can say for sure is that I will not only be stronger due to this error in judgement, I truly believe I will thrive due to simply doing the right thing for all who where involved. I can honestly say this was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do for two reasons: 1. The relationship ending because to be quite truthful I love/loved him & 2. The broken promise to myself... the promise that I would never do this to myself again, the promise that I would protect myself at all cost. I know I stayed longer due to pride and the feeling we all feel when we've invested time & effort. I had my eye fixed on the future and the possibility that one day things would be different versus being focused on now and the promise that today is already blessed.
The release is increasingly becoming more comforting, more empowering, and less painful. I know the sun will rise again... I think for right now I'm kinda glad it's setting though. Time to sleep, gain rest be good to myself again, and allow my soul to heal. Whenever your heart is broken it will heal stronger... it will be ready to take in more love, give more love, and love more vigorously than ever before!
Love & Blessings.