Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Party Art

He makes me happy
I smile and giggle
and do all the girl things
a girls supposed to do.
He makes me laugh
with every motion,
his eyes lights as he welcomes
my frame... out on the floor
He makes me breathe deep.
I wanna take in more air
Ahhhh when he's around
I wanna breathe deep
n'take in all the air.
In this room.
Speakers sounds pumping
awaiting our entrance
anticipating our existence
...out on the floor.
I don't have moments of sadness or doubt
no moments of insecurities
no room for let downs.
Cuz I know
he loves me.
More than anything else
while we dance,
I know he loves...me.
He told me once
told me he couldn't help himself.
told me he needed to brace himself
for the real forreal...
never found someone that moves like you girl... forreal
Shit this is the way the universe meant for this to feel girl
the thrill! Blood racing with furry
Warmth
heart pounding, dancing, expanding with glory
excited for new love
of dance
of this beat... this rhythm... this base
running, jumping rhythmically finding the music...
blending into its pace
musics moment in timeless skies
hands laced like a crocheted scarf as our hands glide
is my arms around his body
or is his arms around mine???
taking in each others breath
air sweet as we dance ourselves to death!
resurrected by pulsing of beats...
the tapping,
the timing
the moving of our feet
the muscles in our thighs
legs upon legs... mine between yours
yours between mine.
nose nuzzled near my ear
lips on the crook of my neck...
all we hear are the DJ sounds putting that shit on deck.
Sweats dripping like an erotic perfume
at this point
a unisex fragrance that is unique
personal
distinct... to this joint.
Our bodies can barely be seen as 2
Most definitely one
it's the law up in this muuffucka
sheeeeiiiit it's how it gets done up in this muthafucka!
The real thing
The beating heart
My dance partner for life
Watch
as our souls become party art.

Love & Blessings,
Buttaflibabee 

Monday, November 12, 2012

the fall...

When he looks at me he sees beyond my eyes
… he sees the real me... the essence of me.
When he touches my body he touches more than my flesh
... he touches my soul.
When he kisses me he kisses more than my lips
... he tastes the interior of my thoughts.
When he holds me he holds more than my body
he embraces my hopes my dreams.
When he makes me smile he gives me more than joy
… he gives me a sense of well- being.
When we connect we do more than intertwine
we rise to new heights new levels
… we explore climatic bliss.
With touch
With more love
With the deepest kiss.
From that power we find ourselves stripping down to nothingness
seeing more than exposed arms
Legs
Breast
Head.
We see light
Sunshiny sparkles
New found strength
Newly chartered heights.
New found power
Every hour is a new found hour.
Every inch he enters
He finds new parts of my existence
less time for resistance.
becoming less & less hard to expose
But easy to give in.
Love is it?
...I think that’s without saying.
Real is it?
…well for now there's no playin.
Forever is it… right now yes, and that's all we have.
The risk we take is never in the plan... never in the foreseeable future
and yet so painfully simple.
Like a child with mud pies and easy bake
Ovens
All I want right now is his lovin
All I want right now
Is the you that's in me.
Together
Right now filled with nothing less describable as "plain ole' happy"
better yet
a perfect fit
When he touches, and kisses, and caresses,
It’s not just for him but for life
Not just for me but for life.
Do you see?
Do you understand...
do you get me?
Make sure you take my hand
and don’t let go
squeeze... just squeeze.
and don’t say no
Just collapse deep in me
inhale  1-2-3-4 with me
exhale 1-2-3-4 with me
After we kiss he become one in me
When you take me, make sure you take all of me
and when you come make sure you have it all in me.
Right now I'm ready
For the fall
Into love.

Love & Blessings,
Buttaflibabee

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Reborn.


The day decided to give it all away
I surrendered to the way 
I was made
Created
Birthed
Given life here on this earth
The day I decided to go
My own way
the opposite of astray
No
closer to his vision
the decision to come
into my own
 Waking up to new light 
new sight
on new blessings
unlocking doors that were meant to be lessons
jammed shut
banging banging banging on the door
waiting for just the right...
time.
 The day I decide to say goodbye
and yet hello 
all in the same wave
the same second
the same day
 smiling from ear to ear 
all the while knowing
the truth of it all
the root of it all
The day I stopped turning the knob
 allowing the door to open on its own
 sadness most times wets your palette for joy
tears the appetizer for eternal bliss
pools that well up like bubbles awaiting the spill
out of the tub
the overflow of love
its all you ever dreamed of
but it's nothing like you imagined
being here
is nothing I could've imagined 
The day I decided to learn what needed to be taught
Understanding life's the school
I the attentive pupil
God the dedicated teacher
and earth... our world the class.
Me green with fresh fallen ignorance
Of now
the how 
 the why 
 the when 
senses open listening acutely to the lesson given.
Class without a need for a black board
or chalk or books
so sit down and open your eyes
and look
out the window
at our huge open school
The bells ringing
I'm already seated
Excited to absorb the lessons that are needed
Nothing worth having has ever been easy
The day I decided to open my heart
close my eyes
trust my soul
Love my existence
The day I decided to live this life-time in non-resistance
That was the day
my life began.
Reborn.

Love & Blessings,
Buttaflibabee