Sunday, February 19, 2012

Jump.

"Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive--the risk to be alive and express what we really are."

-Don Miguel Ruiz


Have you ever lived in fear?  I have, and the strangest part about it is I didn't even know it.  I spent years covering my beauty with fat, and lack luster self-esteem but not until yesterday did I realize just how comatose my soul really was.  I went to church with my mom yesterday and after service I ran into one of her friends from way back in the day.  My mothers friend was so sweet gushing over how pretty I had gotten, she went on and on even to the point where she said I looked stunning, like I had gotten prettier.  What shocked me wasn't necessarily what she said but how she said it.  See my mothers friend isn't the first person to ask what I've been doing to look this way, what secret potion am I drinking.  The fact is, I haven't "done" anything to my face nor my body but I know others can see something new within myself, I know others can feel something different is going on.  That brings me back to this quote, for years I didn't live because I didn't understand myself, all I knew was that girl who was comatose, I had no clear purpose and didn't know why I was alive.  Fast forward to today the day of the living, I feel like walk taller now and from time to time I can even feel myself glowing on the inside!  Today I understand my worth because I know what I've been called to do, this feeling is like living to the extreme, like skydiving... the feeling of boundless opportunities ahead! Now I'll be honest the landing, the "how do I get there" is an immediate challenge, but isn't it a blessing to finally get a chance to take off, jump, & live?!


Love & Blessings.
Buttaflibabee

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