Saturday, February 20, 2010

Answer=Journey

Recently I've been asked by friends and followers... "when did you start writing?" or "I didn't know you were a writer" my answer to that is usually... hell neither did I. When I tell you that I stumbled on writing and blogging I really do mean that. I mean... trust me... the truth of the matter is I have been looking, searching and hunting to find my purpose in life and believe me there has been times where I thought I would never find my path. Throughout my life I thought I was meant live out my career in a number of different industries... at first thought I was meant to be a singer because I have a pretty good singing voice. Then there was a time I thought I was going to be a realtor because I love real estate and home improvement, oh and then of course I can't forget the times I thought I should become an event planner and the reason for that is... of course... because I love parties and all of the elements of party planning. When I look back on life I've gone from thoughts of becoming a personnel chief, to professional stager/interior designer, all the way to undergarment & health sales person, and when you boil things down, each and every one are wonderful careers... but ummmmmm... not quite the right fit for me. So now I'm here blogging... putting my thoughts into words, and putting those words onto a blog for all the world to view, read, comment, identify with and/or scrutinize... and at the end of the day it's still all love no matter how scary this can be for me. Shortly after I declared my decision to proceed with my divorce I became unemployed, at that point in my life I was searching for something but I couldn't put my finger on what that something was, all I knew is that I had to do better than what I was currently doing. I then began to seek the answer the question of what was missing in my life, here I was thinking that by seeking the answer certainly I would find it, what I didn't realize is that all I was finding was more and more wrong answers. I wasn't aware at that time, and didn't know that I couldn't find the answer to my questions by continuously trying to seek answers, what eventually dawned on me is the reason you have the question in the first place is because you have no idea what the answer should look like, feel like, or act like. The best thing for me was to keep asking the question... to live in the question. I now realize that when I became open and admitted to myself that I didn't have a clue to what my purpose was in life is the exact time I found myself stumbling onto the right path. I knew I needed to work at some point, lets face it I'm a 30 something year old woman who has bills to pay, but this time I told myself when I reentered the workforce it would be different. I knew I would take whatever I was blessed with and have a more simple outlook on things, by this I mean I didn't get my new position and think... "oh boy I'm going to get promoted, and I'm going to make 75k a year and then I'm gonna move up and up and up in this company" that was the mistakes of the past. Instead I accepted the position for what it is right now, learn from job, learn to accept constructive criticism... like I said earlier keepin it simple. Now that I've simplified my life living has been nothing but phenomenal, so I do my thing... put my thoughts into words, those words onto this blog and allow the world to view, read, comment, identify with and/or scrutinize it, but I know just by living in the question I have gotten closer to the answer. My journey is not done yet and I don't want it to be, but I do know I'm on the right track.... and how sweet is that! Love & Blessings. - Buttaflibabee

1 comment:

  1. A'misha (colleage/friend)February 25, 2010 at 3:06 PM

    I definitely believe that your steps are ordered by God,so keep on the path,never looking back and never having regrets!

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